Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
-Feels Like Home, Chantal Kreviazuk
Things have finally mellowed for us--after what seemed like 20 years of fighting. It's amazing and at the same time somewhat of a shock. I guess we're both just really tired of all the bickering and fighting over the littlest of things which obviously doesn't do us any good. We're still both going through a lot of things as individuals but oddly, it seems as if we're actually dealing with it together.
No, this is not a martyr-speech. I'm not delusional either. I just know that this is really what I want and I'm not going to let my once in a lifetime pass me by. I guess bottomline, regardless of all the crap that we've dished out at each other, the good times still outweigh the bad and believe it or not, he makes me happy like no one else can. He's my HOME-albeit the dysfunctionality.
On another note, this song reminds me of a really good friend of mine. Aside from the Dawson's Creek soundtrack, I know this was used for some movie (Is it How To Lose?) and we (referring to our now-defunct band) had hoped to play this.(My new band however is about to hit some bars soon so watch out for us!) I found out yesterday that I'm going to be a ninang soon. What a SHOCK! But hey, they sounded happy and they took the news pretty well cos' they've been somewhat expecting it (looooooooong story) so... Congratulations Mommy Boppers and Daddy Rocker! (I hope it's a GIRL! Wawaa Daddy Rocker! hehehe)
While I know that babies are blessings and gifts and yadda yadda, I'm just pretty freaked. It's as if everyone's either pregnant, about to give birth or has already given birth. It's stressful really. (okay..did I just overshare?!) Although, we actually had an entire conversation regarding our future kids' names- Quincy, Quentin and Quira (just in case we get a girl). We expect that their future teachers in their future schools, among a whole lot of others, will find ways to bastardize their names with their dection so these will probably change in the future. Seriously though, at this point in my life, I simply can't quite picture myself as a mom. If I was placed in that situation, I don't think I'd be equipped to handle it. And for the record, based on my history with my mother, when the right time comes, I'll be praying on both knees for a BABY BOY!
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